Moving on

Life goes through phases. In every phase you are a different person having different ideas, beliefs and dreams; and a different central drive. You can say that we grow and develop with these phases, but it can also be that we really degrade with passing phases. Probably the world and its norms get to us more and more with each passing phase. Probably we were the purest in the first phase and start getting corrupted from then on. But let’s get practical, I think we grow mature and become better at living and shining in this world. I don’t have the big picture yet, but just a belief that everything happens for the good. Today, I am at the end of one such phase – the phase of college life and I am ready to step into my next phase – job; working for somebody else for the first time in my life. From where I stand, I don’t know how my next phase is going to be. I am excited and curious to know what it’ll be like to be there. The prospect of new challenges and new experiences always excites me in a positive and inspiring way. But much about the future, I feel a bit enlightened now, standing here, at the finish of this 4 years long phase. A part of me is mocking me for all the crap I did, all the crap I believed in which looked real then, but now is standing bare naked in the light of the truth that eluded me then. Another part of me is nostalgic, those crap and not so crap things that I believed in with my whole heart made me happy, made me feel real and myself. I know now that most of these things will fade away with my next phase, but some things will sustain with me, forever. They will add to the big picture and contribute to the absolute me. Many years later when I’ll describe to my close friends who I really am, some of those things will feature in what I’ll say then. If I were to thank my alma mater for one thing, then that would be this – helping me discover those things that will define me in times to come.

I’ll take home things like valuing friendship, integrity, hard work, passion and standing up for my decisions. The wonderful memories which will bring a smile on my face for some time, will too fade away with time. Nothing is constant with time, everything changes. I hope that I stay in touch with my college friends who will help me remember these wonderful memories for long lasting time.

I have cried last three days. We are having our valedictory function these days – people get nostalgic talking about good and bad old times, talking about their friends, thanking them for being there when they were most needed. Suddenly we have realized that all this is going to end, yes this phase with beautiful, painful, fun and sad experiences is going to end. We made up companions who made going through this phase easy and fun and developed such strong bonds with them that it is very hard to part now. All good things end, because newer and probably even better things need room! This is life, it moves on, even though we want it to be stationary for some more time, to cherish our college life, probably more fully this time, knowing well that it is not lasting forever. That is why people say that we live life more fully if we are fully aware of our death, most people just pretend that they know death, but actually they don’t. Because if they did, they will never live life like they live now.